Thursday, March 30, 2006


Honestly, where do the weeks go?? I can't believe this week is almost over. Ann and Adam came down tonight and we went to Anthropologie, one of my favorite stores, I could honestly take one of everything in there. Their home stuff is amazing. I actually got a couple really cute things I'm excited about. Estee and I spent a little time outside today enjoying the nice weather, she loved it as long as I kept her on the blanket, she goes crazy on grass, hates it!! Can't wait for the weekend, hopefully we'll have some more good weather... Posted by Picasa

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Here I come!

I love, love, love this photo. Estee marching all through the house, so proud of herself. I guess this is a whole new world for her... I am so proud! Posted by Picasa

Looking like a little lady...

I don't know what it is about these pictures, but to me she looks so big... I can't believe how fast she is growing. I am so lucky to be her Mom. Posted by Picasa

More first steps...

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Another video of Estee's first steps, getting pretty good!! sorry it's sideways!!

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

First steps...

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Estee's fist steps... can you believe it???

Monday, March 27, 2006


I've been thinking about this all day, I can't seem to take my mind away from my grandpa. He passed away three years ago and today was his birthday. He was my best friend, my most loyal supporter, my biggest fan. I don't think there are words to explain how my heart longs for him, I miss him so much everyday. Now I know I was blessed to have my Grandpa for as long as I did, alot of people never even know their Grandparent's. We lived in the same town when I was growing up so I did not lack in the time I spent with him. I hold on so tightly to all of the memories I have with him. I remember one night when our whole family was staying in San Diego at the beach my grandpa had told me about the grunion run (when all the fish, hundreds and hundreds come on shore in the middle of the night) I wanted to see it so badly but my parents made me go to sleep, I think I was about 7 years old, anyways, I remember he came into my room in the middle of the night took me up in his arms carried me over the beach wall and into the sand and there they were thousands of fish sparkeling like glitter on the shore it was so amazing to me, like a dream and I felt so lucky that he had gotten me up to experience it, I felt so special that night. This was a gift my Grandpa had, to make everyone in our family feel special, like each one of us was his favorite. I know that the day I see him again will be so joyous. The cycle of life is amazing, we lose people that we love dearly, it seems we could not get through these losses but for the fact that we are blessed with new spirits whom we love. And so it continues until we are all together again... what an incredible thought. Posted by Picasa

So stinking cute...

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Estee's newest trick!

Sunday, March 26, 2006

The many faces of Estee...

Some of my favorite shots... Posted by Picasa

Vintage baby

I love all vintage baby stuff, pictures, cards, planters, pretty much everything... So tonight I found this website that makes these cutest ever cookies. I was dying...

Missing out

Estee and I stayed home from church today, Estee's runny nose has gone from bad to worse. I know she is not actually sick, but really didn't want everyone in the ward to think I brought a sick baby to church, her nose will not stop running and looks pretty bad. So I am missing out, I love our ward and love to go to church, even though it is really difficult with Estee because she keeps in me in the halls most of the time, I still feel like I get alot out of it. Estee took three steps this morning, if I hold something she wants bad enough in front of her she'll usually go for it, she is really close and gets so excited after her few steps!! I am thinking alot today about the week ahead, what I want to accomplish, things I want to get done. It seems there just is never enough time in the day, or week for that matter. Chris's birthday is on April 8th and I want to do something really special for it, we are going to be in saint george on the 8th and 9th for my cousin's baby blessing, so I'm planning on doing something on the 7th... I want it to be a special birthday for him. So I'll be thinking alot about that this next week. Anyways, I am feeling uplifted, grateful, and happy today for all that I have, I couldnt imagine being more blessed. Posted by Picasa

Saturday, March 25, 2006

So serious

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Soooooo cute!

We went to the park right by our house today, Estee had the best time. Posted by Picasa

Friday, March 24, 2006

Bella's Birthday!

Today is my niece Bella's 6th birthday! I remember when Chris and I were first dating, right before he left on his mission, we went to Adam and Amy's house when they were living in sugarhouse and Bella was just about a month old. I can't believe that she is already 6, time flies!She has grown into such a beautiful, smart little girl. Her birthday party was at backyard adventures and Estee had a blast. She ate tons of pizza and cake and had so much fun playing around with her cousins. I got some really cute shots and almost lost them all... long story. After the party I had scouts (I am a weebalo den Mom for those who didn't know) we had to go all over town and put bags on everyone's porch for canned goods, good thing it was a beautiful day because we were out for hours. Anyways, had to post because it was such a big day for Estee! Posted by Picasa

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Twin ditar

I can't even begin to imagine what life would be like without a twin. It's hard to explain to someone who isn't a twin what it's like to have one. Ann is my best friend, truly, in the realest sense. She knows me better than I know myself. We have always been close, we never had that wierd cant stand eachother thing that twins sometimes have, not us, we have always loved being twins. Actually, I have always felt lucky and blessed to have her as my twin. We have been through alot together, starting with the womb that we shared, interesting because we were both breech and so both of our heads were up, it seems even from the begining we had a hard time seperating. We have expierienced new schools, boyfriends, heartbreaks, college, Ann's divorce and much more. I miss her, I see her all the time, but I still miss her. Don't get me wrong I love being married and my husband is an amazing companion, but sometims I just plain miss her. I miss staying up all night talking and giggling, we did this every night growing up! , I miss having someone who can know what I'm thinking without saying a word ( Chris is getting there) . I never really thought of my kids not having twins, I know that sounds wierd but you expect your children to be somewhat like you and that is basically what makes me who I am. I sometimes feel sorry for Estee that she will never know the love of a twin sister, but I am reminded that she will never know what she is missing. I am blessed to have Ann in my life, we are kindred spirits and will always share something only few understand. Posted by Picasa


She realy does look angelic here... love her. Posted by Picasa


I miss my mom, I wanted her closer so badly this morning, I needed her. I was exhausted and frusterated as Estee had awoke like 20 times last night, and then woke up at 6am this morning. I wondered how I had made the decision to live so far away from the one person who would always be there to help me. I since was able to sleep for three and a half hours while Estee took a long nap... I woke up with a new out look feeling rejuvinated and refreshed and realizing that I need to go through these tough times to realize my capabilities, to understand and know that I can do it, that I am strong and that I am learning.
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Who's calling?


Well, it has been one of those nights. The day started out great, lunch group was at my house (we had it today rather than Fri. Because Jen and Amy are going out of town) Anyways, I had a fiesta with all the trimmings, It was a lot of fun. Unfortunately, things took a turn for the worse this evening, I had hit my head earlier on, pretty hard right on my temple so my head was throbbing in pain all day. Estee was as fussy as I have ever seen her, screaming and crying for hours and whenever I expressed any sort of concern Chris got frustrated (he seems to think I jump to worst case sanario way too fast) oh and did I mention, I am absolutely exhausted? I only slept about 3 hours last night. I am so ready for a good nights sleep, long and uninterrupted... ya right!!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Nap time

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I love going to get Estee after her naps and in the morning, she is always so sweet and so happy to see me... those rosy cheeks, that crazy hair, that toothy grin, it's the best!


Dont have much to say today. Estee and I went to salt lake to meet Adam and Ann at Anthropologie last night. We went to dinner at "the dodo" after and had a great time together, Chris had alot to do last night so he didn't come. Estee didn't sleep very well last night and fussed all morning as I dragged her all around, running all kinds of errands, I was wishing we were lounging at home but remembered yesterday we were forced to do that and I couldn't wait to get out of the house... go figure!! Anyways, I've got to say it feels pretty good to relax in my comfy bed as Estee naps, hopefully it will be a nice long one. Posted by Picasa

Monday, March 20, 2006

Cabin Fever

I have been home all day, Chris took my car cause it needed an oil change and left his truck (without the carseat). I am itching to get out of the house, go to target and go to the grocery store, but sadly that's not gonna happen anytime soon as Chris is working late... well, I did take some pretty cute shots of Estee though, here is one that I love, I guess just because I captured her silliness. Thats it I guess... oh ya, can I get some comments????


This morning I am amazed at the gift god has given us to create... to create life no less. It is such a serious, huge thing. This morning as I rocked Estee to sleep the thought kept coming into my mind how we will eternally be connected, there will never be another day that this little girl, (and later on big girl ) wont be a part of me, she is truly in my soul. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed, and doubt myself or my abilities as a mother, but I am learning that this is okay and actually pretty common, thanks for the talk last night Amy Maher! But I am amazed and blown away that we get to do this, that we get to love so deeply. Posted by Picasa

Saturday, March 18, 2006


We took Estee tonight to have her picture taken, and she looked so cute!! I can't wait to see how they turn out because they looked like they were going to be really cute. They were kind of old fashioned looking and they had some really darling things, I get to see the proofs on Thur. Estee did really well for the most part although she did have a bit of a problem with some wooden ducks the lady had, oh and she wasn't to fond of a pink boa either, although I don't blame her for that one!! Anyways after the sitting Chris, Estee and I went to dinner with Adam and Ann, all in all a fabulous Saturday!!

Noodles... Estee's favorite!

Bye bye

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Trying to teach Estee Olivia's trick of waving bye bye to the water... soo funny, look what happened!!

Friday, March 17, 2006

Lunch group

Can I just tell you how much I love lunch group. It's such a nice way to end a crazy week, getting together with friends and laughing ALOT !! Today it was at Amy's and it was delish... the kids played so well together and are really starting to interact, funny to watch their little personalities! Amy also is so thoughtful, like for example she cliped a bunch of pampers coupons for me because she knows I buy pampers for Estee, I never clip coupons for myself and let me tell you, tonight at target I was thrilled to use one!! I love that she thinks of other people all the time, she is an example to me and I am so lucky to have her as a friend! Next week it is at my house, I already cant wait... Posted by Picasa


I have been going through old pictures all night and I cant even tell you how much fun it's been remembering all the fun I've had and remembering the great times I've had with all of my friends. I couldn't help but share some of them because they really are some of my best memories... Halloween 1998, my first semester in college at raintree apartments, we were the spice girls... this one is a classic.
All of us in front of our apartment building, please notice the wheelchair in the stream next to us, we played with that thing all day long... I am so happy to say I am still great friends with all of these girls (except Rachel, wonder how she is??) Love this one!
Sarah's first time in the ocean ever, we had just driven to San diego from Provo in the middle of the summer in a Geo metro with no air conditioner. We went straight from the car into the water, we were laughing so hard, such a great memory.
Carmae... Oh I love this one, I worked with this sweet autistic girl for over 3 years, she was and is so dear to me although I have not seen her in years. Posted by Picasa